Oh my! 2025 is starting for me like 2024 ended. I can’t even describe it. Back in the day, I thought a time would come when I’d have goals & plans & take disciplined actions to achieve them. When that day never seemed to arrive, I was frustrated & disappointed with myself. I never quit trying … & thinking I’d failed.
FINALLY — I’m more at peace with however I am today. I’m more confident that God loves & accepts me just as I am (although I’m less certain this is how He designed me to be). And I’m grateful Gene keeps loving & accepting & supporting me (likely despite how I am). I’m sure it’s not easy. God is so good to both of us.
As for New Year’s Day 2025, it’s a continuation of whatever it all is. So much good … & day by day, I need to accept & focus on that, even when it seems selfish. Pray & trust that God is leading & equipping me & is placing me where He wants me, even when it doesn’t make sense to me.
I didn’t get pictures of today’s great start, including blueberry sourdough French toast & bacon for breakfast. I did get a picture of us at the gym. I put my black-eyed peas in the stew Gene started in the morning & was ready for dinner. I tried to not run out to take a picture of the sunset before we ate, but how could I resist?!?!? Yet, I did resist an invitation to visit a friend. Maybe tomorrow? Oh yes, I also missed a Zoom gathering I looked forward to, after I got distracted by breaking news.
Perhaps most representative of my day & life was my high hope for starting a new daily reading plan to go through the whole Bible again this year. “The Bible Recap With Tara-Leigh Cobble” came highly recommended. After I listened to & read everything for getting started & Day 1, I’m ready to give up. But I won’t. Not this soon. (Maybe tomorrow? Ha!)
Instead, again, I’ll thank God for each step of faith & progress. I pray to keep my focus on & faith in Him; to act in faith; to trust God with results; & to give God all glory, honor, thanks & praise. #newyearsameasoldyear