I am what I am

I’m pretty sure I’ve addressed this before. It came back to mind this week. Where better to share it than on my neglected blog?

Written 3-26-24.

I am what I am. 

I’ve spent a lot of time — most of my life — trying to be someone or something else, for some/ many reasons thinking who & how I am is not enough or right. 

Despite lots of affirmation & love & encouragement from others — plus assurances of God’s love & that He created me to be as I am — I’ve kept comparing myself to others & trying to be more like them. I couldn’t shake the feelings that I was not only missing out on the wonderful things I saw others enjoying, but also that I was failing to make the most of opportunities I was given.

I’ve gone around feeling deep inside that I’m a huge disappointment to God, my family & the world. 

I want to hold fast to this new reality — I am what I am. Period.

(Don’t judge it. Just be with it.)

For this moment, I’m letting go & trusting God with this reality.