Just another day (blessed)

I pray to be willing to accept that it’s ok for the start of a new year to be just another day — one day at a time. I don’t know where I got the idea that the transition from one year to the next is such a big deal. I think my newspaper background is a factor; making a big deal out of & finding a story/meaning in things, especially transitions, while many people around me are just living life as it comes, taking it as it is. 

I’m the one who wanted to end this year fishing w/Gene & starting 2026 that way, even tho it means I won’t do other things (& sleep will suffer). 

That said, I am feeling more peace & acceptance & less anxious about how things are & how they might go. I’m seeing that no matter how hard I try or how little I do, things work out. They work out best when I pray, act in faith & trust God. I don’t understand it & I don’t have to, altho it would be nice if I could explain it, to share experience, strength & hope. It’s not magic; it’s acting in faith on promises of God & recovery. How did I get here? I gave up on trying to figure things out (after seeing again & again that my figuring was faulty & never worked) & shifted my focus to letting go & trusting God. Along the way, I embraced Scriptures that made it OK to not understand (Proverbs 3:5-6) & to have peace amid storms & confusion & concerns (Philippians 4:4-6). My life is far from perfect. And that’s amazingly OK. I am blessed, grateful, loved.