Saturday, August 27, 2016

It's not time yet

Blog potential continues to be stymied by a lack of something. Motivation? Substance? Urgency? Self-esteem? Faith? Clarity?

I don't think it's lack of faith. Actually, evidence of faith is that I keep checking in, at least to assess where I am.  I've seen, and believe it will happen again, that when I think I have nothing to write, sometimes something will come together. If not, I'll eventually know it's time to let this go. 

But it's not time yet. 

Saturday, August 20, 2016

I'm continuing to experience days where it seems I would have a lot to share about the sweet music of life, and either the motivation or the words aren't there. Life is good. God is great, and I am grateful. Morning by morning new mercies I see. All I have needed God's hand hath provided. Great is His faithfulness! 

Saturday, August 13, 2016

Straight paths and other insights

On Thursday, I found myself praying to trust God, lean not on my own understanding, in all my ways acknowledge Him. Because I need Him to make my path straight!! (Of course, I had the insight earlier in the week that what looks like a convoluted path may not seem that way in God's big-picture view.)  

On Friday, I was tired and weary and prayed for a word of guidance from God. 

In my Jesus Calling devotional, I found these: 

“A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out. In faithfulness he will bring forth justice.” —ISAIAH 42:3

“Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the LORD, who has compassion on you. —ISAIAH 54:10 

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. —ROMANS 8:26

Do not compare yourself with others, who seem to skip along their life-paths with ease. Their journeys have been different from yours ... 


And this from Upper Room, under the heading "Rest for the Weary":

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30

Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.- Psalm 68:19 (NIV) 

And from Craig Denison's First 15:

God is a joyful God. He is the inventor of happiness and fun. Luke 15:10 says, "Just so, I tell you, there is joy before the angels of God over one sinner who repents." Nehemiah 8:10 tells us "the joy of the Lord is [our] strength."   In order to truly declare to the world who our heavenly Father is, we must be carriers of joy. We must be a people marked by the joy that only comes from restored relationship with an all-knowing, all-powerful, and all-loving God. ...

Isaiah 55:12 says, "For you shall go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and the hills before you shall break forth into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands." The Lord longs to make us a people that go out in joy. He longs to make us children who are overwhelmed by his love to the degree that the cares of this world pale in comparison to his grace and affections.
 
Ask the Lord for perspective today. Allow the Spirit to help you focus your attention on the true purpose for which you were created: restored relationship with your heavenly Father. Choose the joy of the Lord over the stress and cares of the world.

Choose to "be led forth in peace" rather than led by your flesh. And experience today the lifestyle of carrying the joy of the Lord with you everywhere you go. May others come to know the abundant goodness of your heavenly Father through the way you exude joy.  

Saturday, August 6, 2016

Here we go again

It's blog day, and I have nothing. 

There's so much I want to write, but I don't even know where to start, to make it make sense. My hope is that after mid-October, I will have more time to write.

But who am I kidding? There's always time or there's never time.
 
In God's time, perhaps. That actually is my hope and prayer!!

Saturday, July 30, 2016

It's that time ....

It's blog deadline again. And I have no time to come up with anything. But I'm still not ready to give it up. 

Saturday, July 23, 2016

Cyclical reminders

Anniversaries. Cyclical reminders of joys and despair. They are real. That's all for now. 

Saturday, July 16, 2016

Not so random after all

I thought this week's post was going to be quite random, but after I got started, that wasn't the case. 

One of the things on my mind is that I am not good at goodbyes. My own big farewell from my workplace of 34 years isn't supposed to happen until October. But Friday was the last day at work for two of my colleagues, including one who was not among those being laid off but decided to bail out anyway. What it brought to the forefront for me was how hard it has been for me to maintain friendships with people who are no longer in the circle of people I cross paths with on a regular basis. I've made some improvement, but as my own departure gets closer, I am acutely aware that relationships don't continue without effort. 

Facebook actually has helped me stay more connected with people -- because I don't have to remember everything about them. I can check their page for an update before we see each other. 

That leads to the bigger issue: I don't trust my memory. And so, as I prepare to wrap up a major chapter in my life, I have some anxiety that details even of key experiences and relationships will fade into a blur. Many already have. 

I have some hope that steps I am taking now and will continue after October may strengthen my memory, but is it possible to regain what seems lost? Instead of agonize about this, maybe I'll chose to be hopeful!!

(An interesting aside is that some of the aftermath of my co-worker's notice that he was leaving led me to see how close I was to not being laid off -- and realizing again how grateful I am for how things have transpired.)

This is the random part, excerpts from devotions in recent days. 

From Thursday:  

First 15's simplicity study today is about freedom in the spirit, and the Scripture was Romans 8, which is about the furthest from simple for me. I have learned a simple trick that helps some, however, which is to read it aloud. 

Friday:

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. —2 CORINTHIANS 12:9

Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. —PSALM 62:8 NKJV

Saturday: 

He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD. —PSALM 40:2–3

Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why have you become disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him for the help of His presence. —PSALM 42:5 NASB

The LORD delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love. —PSALM147:11