Thursday, July 30, 2015

Sad and grateful

My brother's sweet wife Elaine died Saturday shortly after noon. She was an amazing woman who showed so much grace as a wife and mother and sister and co-worker and Christian and in every role she filled. She was courageous in her fight against cancer. And now she is whole again and reunited with loved ones in heaven. I know many of my friends have been praying for Elaine and Mike Davidson and their family, and that is so appreciated. I am grateful to God for his continued blessings on this family. 

Saturday, July 18, 2015

Worth the trip

Knowing I would be in airports and on planes last Sunday morning, I knew I would not be going to church. I also knew I wanted to go with God. 

I typically pray when the plane takes off and lands, and that was no different this time. 

A real sense of the divine came in the timing that allowed me to connect with a friend and her husband when we arrived in Charleston, S.C., even though I did not call her until that morning. I hate that I don't plan and execute intentions better, but I am immensely grateful I didn't let lack of ore planning stop me from making that call. The wonderful visit set the stage for a relaxing mini-vacation. 

Myrtle Beach was fantastic. Smooth sand. Great sand. A hotel room with a perfect view. 

Fireworks. Visiting a cousin who truly lives at the beach.  

And still I wonder: How much better would it be if I weren't so disorganized?

Who knows? It might not be any better. 

This is all very random. I do hope to come back and edit this one. I just wanted to get today's time stamp. 

Maybe something about the presidential security and the beached whale. 

And fireworks on the way to buy gas back in OKC. 

It's all good. And worth the trip. . 

Saturday, July 11, 2015

Ready for a Vacation!

I'm pretty much packed and ready to catch a plane to South Carolina for a leisurely few days at the beach. 

It seems kinda crazy to be going. The opportunity was unexpected. But I jumped on it as soon as I knew about it. Then some other circumstances changed, and the opportunity seemed less ideal. I'm truly trusting God and believing His timing is perfect. It adds to my eagerness to see what He has planned. 

On my to-do list for Sunday since our flight leaves at 6, which means no church, is to worship and pray along the way. Go with God. No wonder I'm excited!!!


Saturday, July 4, 2015

Grateful and free

On this Independence Day, it seems fitting to list freedoms for which I am grateful. 

I'm grateful to God for hope that springs eternal. I'm grateful to be free to choose to love and worship God. 
I'm free to try and fail. 
I'm free to love and be loved. 
I'm free to pursue happiness. 
I'm free to choose what kind of work to do. 
I'm free to ramble. 
I'm free to keep on keeping on, trying to find my way, trying to find my truth. 

I'm free to keep learning. And I pledge to do so. I feel as if I am regressing in so many areas. I am free to turn this ship around. 

God please help me. 

Thank You. 

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Weary spirit

I didn't blog about Mother's Day or Father's Day this year. I usually do, and I'm not sure why I didn't. 

I had hoped to look back at Facebook and journals and compile an aggregate!! But it's almost a week after Father's Day, and I still haven't done it. 

The blog may be winding down. I want to be upbeat and optimistic and honest. But situations in life -- including friends losing loved ones; court rulings on social issues and impossible circumstances at work -- have been weighing down my mind. I keep praying and coming back to stand on my faith, but I end up mentally and spiritually exhausted.  And physically exhausted, too. 

Maybe I've just let myself get too tired. I hope that's all it is.

Nostalgic. 
Depressed. 
Grateful. 
Blessed. 

From Craig Denison's First 15 again:

Isaiah 26:3 says, "You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you." Our God has peace in store for us in every situation if we will choose to keep our mind stayed on him and trust him. The world says that peace can only come when you've worked your fingers to the bone and have finally attained all you want. ... God's way is to draw you into himself and offer you peace in the midst of your circumstances. He doesn't want you to wait until everything gets worked out before you can have rest-- he's offering you rest right now.


 "The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul." (Psalm 23:1-3). 


Saturday, June 20, 2015

I'm one of those people

I have strong opinions about many things, but I tend to keep a lot of them to myself.

I tend to choose my words carefully. And, even though many people consider me talkative and I do sometimes speak up when others will not, there are many more times that I would like to speak but remain silent.

I tell myself the reason I stay silent is because I don't want to offend anyone. I want to be a peacemaker, and if I can't prayerfully find a way to do that, I lean toward keeping silent.

But just as strong a reason is fear. I fear being rejected or ostracized or condemned.

I don't think it makes me a hypocrite, but it does feel dishonest.

And now, here's what first brought this phrase -- "I'm one of those people" -- to my mind this week.

From Denison Forum on June 16:

A growing movement is calling for the acceptance and legalization of polygamy. The number of Americans who accept polyamory ("many loves," whether married or not) has doubled in recent years. According to a recent Gallup study, 63 percent in the U.S. now accept same-sex couples, up from 40 percent in 2001. Sixty-one percent are comfortable with the idea of having children out of wedlock, a 16-point increase from 2001. Sixty-eight percent view premarital sex as morally acceptable, compared to 53 percent in 2001. ...

It's not enough to accept the latest moral trends—we must embrace and endorse them, or pay the price. Mark Tooley, President of the Institute on Religion and Democracy, perceptively states: "Our postmodern secular culture, as it becomes more divorced from the constraints and wisdom of religion, is becoming more detached from reality and more angrily intolerant of any dissent from its evolving fantasies. Any skepticism about the secular elite's latest shibboleths is treated with horror and vociferous denunciation, followed sometimes by coercive efforts to silence or drive from public life the dissenters if they refuse to go silent."

What are we to do? Tooley: "Public dissent and mockery are important tools against pretentious falsehoods. Silence, especially from fear or indifference, only offers complicity. The Church, if committed to the Gospel and to genuine service to humanity, will be bold in reminding us all, despite the threats and harangues against it, that popular culture, even if armed with political and economic power, doesn't have the power to reinvent reality. Truth flows from the throne of God, Who is Himself Truth."

When we are "standing firm in one spirit, with one mind striving side by side for the faith of the gospel" (Philippians 1:27), God uses our courage for his glory. G.K. Chesterton: "Courage is almost a contradiction in terms. It means a strong desire to live taking the form of a readiness to die."

Will you be courageous today?

I wasn't courageous on Tuesday.

I don't agree with cultural promotion of acceptance of homosexuality. I think the Bible speaks clearly on this issue.

But I stay silent.

Fear keeps me silent.

Am I being courageous today? Or foolish?

I just know for my integrity, I needed to take this step,carefully and prayerfully.

Saturday, June 13, 2015

Oh no!

Uh-oh! I was checking to see if blog deadline was Sunday or later -- and I saw that it is today!!!

I've had a great week, but I was not at all prepared to write. 

One day at a time, life is good. 

Life is good, one day at a time. 

I have so much to be grateful for, and I am grateful. 

Highlights include working through challenges at work, and enjoying Relay for Life in Perry even though we got rained out. My time in Perry is always for a good cause -- walking and raising money and awareness for a cancer cure and support for those affected by cancer -- and then I get to spend time with my sister and her cats. 

And tonight I spent good time with my husband. 

So what's not to like? 

Oh yes!