One of the things on my mind is that I am not good at goodbyes. My own big farewell from my workplace of 34 years isn't supposed to happen until October. But Friday was the last day at work for two of my colleagues, including one who was not among those being laid off but decided to bail out anyway. What it brought to the forefront for me was how hard it has been for me to maintain friendships with people who are no longer in the circle of people I cross paths with on a regular basis. I've made some improvement, but as my own departure gets closer, I am acutely aware that relationships don't continue without effort.
Facebook actually has helped me stay more connected with people -- because I don't have to remember everything about them. I can check their page for an update before we see each other.
That leads to the bigger issue: I don't trust my memory. And so, as I prepare to wrap up a major chapter in my life, I have some anxiety that details even of key experiences and relationships will fade into a blur. Many already have.
I have some hope that steps I am taking now and will continue after October may strengthen my memory, but is it possible to regain what seems lost? Instead of agonize about this, maybe I'll chose to be hopeful!!
(An interesting aside is that some of the aftermath of my co-worker's notice that he was leaving led me to see how close I was to not being laid off -- and realizing again how grateful I am for how things have transpired.)
This is the random part, excerpts from devotions in recent days.
First 15's simplicity study today is about freedom in the spirit, and the Scripture was Romans 8, which is about the furthest from simple for me. I have learned a simple trick that helps some, however, which is to read it aloud.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. —2 CORINTHIANS 12:9
Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. —PSALM 62:8 NKJV
He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD. —PSALM 40:2–3